MY BABY FOOTSTEPS

My second award… Amazing. Never thought I could be winning awards for blogging. Okay, so I’m not going to get a trophy nor cold hard cash prize… but the appreciation! The love!

“Yahn, look! Mommy won an award! People out there must love me, and you too! (Since this blog is really all about you… )”

Thanks to Summer from “A Happy Mum” for nominating me. Once again, when I started out blogging, it was really for the husband and myself. To remember our time together. And then it was opened to family and close friends whom I cannot meet frequently, but whom I want to share my happenings so they always know what is going on in my life.  Yes, Facebook does that too… but my geek husband doesn’t want me to put up so many of our personal information on Facebook so he gave me my own web server.

“One Lovely Blog”… I suddenly remember this phrase I’ve seen often in my younger days… “Love in your heart wasn’t put there to stay. Love isn’t love till you give it away.”

So I’m sharing this award with other bloggers, especially mommies. Cos we moms have been giving out so much love to our children that it always cheers us up when we get some more coming our way. These are a few that I’m following cos they always have such great ideas for me to use with my girl! *Thanks Mommies*

1. Love and Lollipops
2. Playing with Words 365
3. Mess for Less
4. La-La’s Home Daycare
5. Teaching 2 and 3 Year Olds

I’m also to list a few things about myself along with this blog award. Is this some kind of thank you speech? You know, like during the Grammy and Oscar awards when the recipient goes on stage and say a few words? Let’s see…

1. I’m happy… cos my girl is happy. Everytime she breaks into loud and wild laughter, I frown at her unladylike demeanour. But inwardly, I am happy seeing how carefree and relaxed she is to laugh with such abandonment.
2. I’m stressed… I may have been a mommy for 2.5 years… but there’s nothing to tell me whether I’m doing things right or wrong. Sometimes I think I’m doing it all wrong and that I should send her to school (like this)… and other times I think I should be feeding her better instead of my miserable cooking or finding the easy way to eat out.
3. I’m excited… I’m in the midst of trying to do something for my girl… So let’s see how it goes.
4. I’m worried… Having been a SAHM for 3 years, I do worry about our finances. But instead of throwing my girl to a childcare, returning to the workforce, and beefing up our household income to live more comfortably, I want to try to do something more. (Refer to Point 3). I’ll give myself maybe a year, or two? If it fails… then yes, I’ll be shipping Yahn to school and sending out my resume fervently.
5. I’m at peace… not. The day I say I’m at peace is when I lay in a wooden box. But because of discontentment, and because of the constant want for more, I’ll keep trying to win. Isn’t that why Steve Jobs ended off his speech with “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish”.  And if all still fail… at least I can say I’ve tried. That I can really lie in that wooden box several decades down the road and really say – “I’m at peace”.

(Sorry if it sounds kindof morbid towards the end… I guess the song “Amazing Grace” drifting into my ears from the funeral downstairs earlier has really affected me.)

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